I recently came across an old post on our family blog. At the time I wrote that post, I was scared. I was scared for Samantha's future and our own -- as a family. I often contemplated what our lives would be like without her. I was in fear of waking up one morning without her. I was in fear of all the what if's that all of a sudden entered our lives when we stepped into our new special needs life. I look back and read this post and a flood of emotion comes back -- the sadness, frustration, panic.